I haven't looked at my literacy narrative in a couple weeks, but I think about it every day. I want to work on it, but I was a little afraid to work on it. I really want this literacy narrative to be something that I am proud of and I worry that I will never be able to do enough work that I am satisfied with it.
Going back to school and getting my teaching degree is really important to me. Every time I tell people that is what I'm doing I get a weird or incredulous look. I get the feeling every time that people think it is a terrible idea, and every time I second guess my choice. But I always come back to the same conclusion: this is something that I really want to do. Even if I'm bad at it, and even if I fail it's something that I have to do, or I will always wonder what my life would have been like, and I would wonder about the children who's lives I maybe impacted.
I guess I got a little off topic. You may be wondering how my literacy narrative ties into how I feel about teaching. I am scared of my literacy narrative because it's important to me and I want it to be great. I want to express myself and I want to be proud of it and I want to share it with everyone. And that is what I want my teaching career to be. I have spent a lot of time in my life being afraid of failing, and being afraid of my decisions instead of trusting my instincts and acting. This is the most important thing I need to overcome. Because if I can't be proud of my work, and if I can't trust myself and what I am doing, I cannot teach students to do the same.
Going back to school and getting my teaching degree is really important to me. Every time I tell people that is what I'm doing I get a weird or incredulous look. I get the feeling every time that people think it is a terrible idea, and every time I second guess my choice. But I always come back to the same conclusion: this is something that I really want to do. Even if I'm bad at it, and even if I fail it's something that I have to do, or I will always wonder what my life would have been like, and I would wonder about the children who's lives I maybe impacted.
I guess I got a little off topic. You may be wondering how my literacy narrative ties into how I feel about teaching. I am scared of my literacy narrative because it's important to me and I want it to be great. I want to express myself and I want to be proud of it and I want to share it with everyone. And that is what I want my teaching career to be. I have spent a lot of time in my life being afraid of failing, and being afraid of my decisions instead of trusting my instincts and acting. This is the most important thing I need to overcome. Because if I can't be proud of my work, and if I can't trust myself and what I am doing, I cannot teach students to do the same.
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